Sunday, September 09, 2007

Today... One Year Ago... It was when...

it all started. I don't know even should I ever start this post. How should I begin...

Maybe a slight side-track from my busy schedule for the last few days and take a good look at myself. Time for some self-reflection and looking back...

For many couples, today is a good and special day, why? Because it is the 9th of September which means double 9. Some of the meaning behind this auspicious number is ever-lasting love,forever and ever kind of meaning.

To me, today marks the day when it all started, when my life started to change. It was exactly one year ago, on this date that I lost someone whom I held special in my heart and begin my singlehood lifestyle...

The journey for the last one year had not been easy but now that I am cut free and allowed to pursue what I want to do. I finally found peace and happiness in myself. I am thankful that I got my friends around me, my family members to support me and of course, I am thankful that I pick up photography.

I now fully devote myself to photography. Photography is now my passion, for it not only bring me joy but happiness to the people around me.

Sorry for the down tone of this post. If this post don't make any sense at all, it doesn't matter any more. I post this as a reminder to myself, to let go and move on. Stay joyful and make all those around you happy.
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6 comments:

ianinozzie said...

Dear bro,
Wow, already one year since you went separate ways with her. And you've handled all this fabulously well. I still remember in those first couple of months when you were wavering and trying to decide whether it was the right decision.

I remember telling you back then to hold firm and not sway from your path. Even though you were unsure whether it was the right decision you made, let me assure you once again that it was the BEST thing for you at that point in time.

Hindsight is 20/20, but I'm sure if you reflect upon that decision you made now, a whole year (and one day!) after, you'll probably realise that it was the best decision you've made. And that's no offence to the other party...but things had just become unmanageable the way they were and if either of you had stayed on, it would have been a futile and pointless struggle...and who knows, one year after, you would be exactly right where you were again, trying to decide whether it was worthwhile staying in a relationship that had stopped growing.

So a year on, don't look back at all. If you do, perhaps look back and tell yourself that you made the right decision. Keep looking forward...who knows what the future brings and good things will come to those who wait.

And as I've told you repeatedly over the years, you deserve so much more and so much better and that right person is just waiting to be discovered by you, around the corner when you least expect it.

9:51 AM
Francis said...

Hey Bro,

Thanks a lot. Rest assured that I pretty much moved on with my life. I only look back to remind myself to move on and carry on and to be strong.

I only can hope the best for her and that she is well and happy. For me, I am a much happier man than before one year ago.

Everything is fine and I start to understand more about myself through this time. All I wanted is that the people around me are all happy and I have a quiet and peaceful life, have time to do my photography, this is all that I can ask for.

As to waiting for that someone new to enter my life, only time can tell.

Regards
Francis

12:05 AM
ianinozzie said...

Indeed. You're able to look back at this right now and realise that it was the right decision for you. If you were still in that relationship, who knows how much more badly you would have been hurt?

She was your first and only and I suppose THAT'S what made it so difficult to let go. But take this as you would any other challenge (that's not emotionally related)...pick yourself up off the ground and start afresh whenever you can't seem to solve a problem intially. That's what's always worked for you.

Hmmm...happy man, eh? I'm reminded of Chicago's "Happy Man" song. Go listen, haha!

10:28 AM
Pipilowlow said...

Hey you know what...Your special one may be another photography geek...:D then two of you can go everywhere together. Wouldn't it be nice?

Have to be patient and wait...:D

Aeris

11:47 AM
Francis said...

Hey Aeris,

Well, it need not to be a photography geek like me. All I want is that special someone who will be by my side always. :)

Regards
Francis

11:02 PM
ianinozzie said...

Err...isn't that a misnomer? Because your special someone will ALWAYS be by your side...if not it wouldn't really count as being a special someone, right? =)

But I'm thinking it's possible that you meet that someone in the course of your photography sessions/activities/events. Highly unlikely it'd be in uni/work, seeing as how you spend more time on photography nowadays?

9:23 AM

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