The Art of Surrender

Happened to read a very interesting, enlightening and inspiring article on Corrinne’s blog which sends me thinking for a while. It was talking about her recent operation and also how she felt the change in herself just like being pruned and how her thoughts undergo the transformation as she has been sharing more spiritual reflections in her blog. Do give that post a read. 

After reading that post, I actually dropped her a comment about my thoughts. I think I will post my thoughts in more details here, so do bear with me if you wanted to know more. 

To me, things in life all happened for a reason. Good or bad, it all have some small lessons that each of us can learn from. Some time when we failed to see what we can learn from this certain incident in life, it might return another time but in another form. I feel that it is very much like what Corrinne had mentioned about being pruned. The more we resist from being pruned due to fear of leaving our comfort zone and also pain; we can never see the lesson that is to be learnt. When we finally throw the towel and accept things, we start to accept getting pruned and the transformation in spiritually, physically, mentally and emotionally begin.

The Act of giving in and resigning to fate is not that easy as I am still learning and recovering from it. How many a time have we fought bravely and persistently but only to be badly battered and wounded not only at mentally and emotionally front but also spiritually and some time physically. To truly give in and accept fate and to do God’s bidding is an Art, the Art of Surrender.

I have been through quite a bit in the last few months, well, in fact, it is coming to a year if I remembered correctly. It all started with me quitting a well-paid job at Motorola and joining NTU as a Project Officer with a pay cut and I have to spend quite a lot on transport in term of monetary and time. On career front, it is not so good but still manageable as I am taking this opportunity to further my Master studies. Next, the passing of my grandma and also losing someone whom I held so close to me all happen at the same time. It really breaks me…

At the start of the year, I started my Master studies and studying seems to take up quite a lot of time and concentration from my work and work has been causing me to lose focus on study and the vice-versa effect. The exam period that had just past was like hell as I got tons of catching up and revision to do. What is worse is that the 2 papers I’m taking are less than 24 hours apart.

Now that exams are over, I started to do quite a bit of reflection for the last few days. Things may looks as if not turning up well or unfair at times, but I take it as if God is giving me a vacation. I remembered watching a Japanese drama called “Long Vacation”, there is a part where the main lead actor said that when things don’t go that well, take it as a vacation given by God/Divine. By taking things easy during this “vacation”, maybe I can then truly surrender myself to the Divine and see the true lesson waiting to be learnt. Let the hand of God direct me to my destiny, until then, I shall wait patiently. Waiting for the sign for above…

Inspired by Surrender by Deb Fung
...Pain or Pride, This thorn piercing my heart, How I long to remember, The Art of Surrender...